Counting down the hours..

Well.. Its here.. the last night before my first insemination... Starting to get butterflies!!! Jamie has the morning off from work to take me. Gotta stop at the corporate office for my work to pick some things up for work prior to us going over to the hospital. oh the anticipation...and then I have to wait a whole 10 days! to see if I conceived or not! That's going to be torture! I talked to my mom yesterday. She sounds really excited :) which really makes me happy. Having the acceptance from your mom is one of the best feelings I could have ever received. She was talking about how she was looking at baby stuff, and how she has somethings from when my brother and I were babies up in the attic. If you knew my mom... you would understand. She's a tough cookie. Strongest woman I ever met. I wanna be just like her when I grow up! LOL! ok, ok, I guess I did kinda grow up already. Well... eleven and a half hours til go time.. until then... nite!

some friendly help

Just about twenty minutes til my ovidrel shot will be givin. I am currently at work, sitting at the bar, Becca the bartender is going to give me my shot.. lucky her since she is the only one here :D ... is it Tuesday yet??

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Confirmed

I closed my eyes... buzzzzz . the phone rings, 6 am. it's the nurse calling to make sure I come in this morning for my baseline testing and U/S. I quickly got up and jumped in the shower. Today could be the day! I dried off, and woke Jamie up. We got in the car and off we went. arriving at the hospital... I sign in. The waiting room wasn't to busy. In the mean time Jamie was pulling my hair whispering aloud ... typically what she does to get a rise outta me. it worked :D It didn't take to long before I was called back. I recieved some blood work and they told me to have a seat back out in the waiting room. oh boy! another round of teasing... she thinks she's Funny. ok maybe a little bit... within 5 minutes they called me back again for my ultrasound. After the ultrasound she proceeded to tell me they would give me a call later on this afternoon with my results?? WHAT!? I was so confused, thought I would be inseminated right then an there! Boy was I wrong! They sent us home. Exhausted I laid on the couch and snoozed 12:08 I got a phone call it was the nurse again. She confirmed that I am surging. I was told that I only have one mature egg and that I will take my Ovidril shot to help along ovulation at 11:30 this evening. and show up at the hospital at 10:30 for 11:00 insemination on Tuesday. :D and :/ . We were hoping for a few more mature eggs to help our chances but no such luck. All we can do is hope for the best!

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Blink blink blink...

The sound of my eye lids... Ugh! I can't sleep tonight... Before I took a shower to go to work today I did an ovulation test. The frustrating thing with these tests is that they are so hard to read! But I'm pretty sure it came up positive. Well I followed protocal and called the nurses line left a message to let them know I surged. I continued with my day, thinking, thinking and some more thinking. Gosh! I really could drive myself insane! Im glad no one could hear me because someone would have for sure told me to shut the BLEEP up! Anywho.. Had a super long day at Work and didn't arrive home until about 2:45 am. Decided to take one more test to reassure myself... I even counted the full five minutes. Yep! Totally "gay" but I did. POSITIVE! So that means I have to be at the hospital before 8 am. Yikes!! I'm going to be super sleepy.. But! For a good cause :) wish me luck! And baby dust!

Can I get a surge...

Woke up at 530 this morning.. Peed in a cup. Took my little squeezer and sucked some up with it. Put the usual... 3 drops on it.. Waited... It's actually kinda cool to watch it travel across the window of the test... And.. Nope no surge. I could have sworn I was going to ovulate at some point in the night. I mean I'm telling ya my ovaries HURT! Anyways.. I crawled back into Bed, snuggled up to Jamie... And drifted away. I woke up to er er er er er ... And .. There goes Jamie hittin The snooze button. Thats her favorite past time :) but eventually she got herself up. Maybe tommorrow will be the day! Until then ...

And here it begins...

My ovaries feel like balloons... Ya know, like water balloons... The clomid made me this way. I started seeing a fertility doctor last summer. My partner and I have talked about having children for sometime now. We decided to do it sooner then later because of underlying health issues. ThE exsessive bleeding and pain I endure months at a time just isn't cutting it anymore. So here I am, on the road to creating a beautiful life. We have been one of the lucky gay couples out there. I was able to be added to her healthcare plan. We found out that it covers insemination, Although we are responsible for the sperm, Which by the way isn't nearly as expesive as the rest of the process. A year into testing, a few surgeries and some medication I am just days away from insemination. I can't believe it. It's really going to happen! My beautiful woman and I are going to take this journey of parenthood together. I think we are goiNg to be great parents. Actually, I KNOW we are going to be great parents. I have so many emotions right now. They're not mixed! But there is alot of em! Normal ones.. Like what is he or she going to look like, what's the pregnancy going to be like, or how about... Ahhhh!!! Birth! Is it going to be long? Or is it going to be a breeze. I guess we will have to find out as it comes. Oh by the way... These balloons are about to BUST!!! :)